Sink Into Me...

So I procrastinate a lot. But I at least get things done in my kind of way. I would rather be one of a kind than be like every body else, that would just be dull.

So my mom is visiting me this week. I'm excited. I received another little care package sorta. I have new movies to watch, which is great. I already watched two of them. I have to laugh at my dad. He sent me three bananas and homemade cookies, oh and golf clubs. I pretty much get to spend two days with my mom, because I have to work the rest. But oh well, I like having visitors.

I can't sleep but I am cleaning and listening to music instead. My landlord will be in here at some point in the next couple of days so it might actually be a good thing that I cannot sleep.

I am hoping to get a new bed this week. Oh and there are a few other things that I am hoping to change this week. I am determined as hell.

So there is this road that I love to drive on at night. Its an amazing journey. It sucks driving it alone, but music turned up and windows rolled down make it turn out better.

About 18 more days til my B-day. I am excited as hell. I normally don't care about celebrating my b-day. But this year feels different. Its strange.

POP Goes the Weasel.....

Foolishness, Cocaine, and Condoms, all in one week.....

So the first time I have ever had this energy drink was the other night. Its called Cocaine. And my friend and I had two cans each before we went to see Transformers 2. Not quite the greatest idea we had but hey, we knew we wouldn't get outta there until 2 am. And we had to work the next day. Anyways, I love the warning that they have on the side of the can.

COCAINE WARNING: This message is for the people who are too stupid to recognize the obvious. This product does not contain the drug cocaine (duh). This product is not intended to be an alternative to an illicit street drug, and anyone who thinks otherwise is an idiot.

So I am pretty sure that I made a fool of myself yesterday @ work. I wanted to hide in the office, but of course my loyal workers would not allow me to. So I stayed, and my hands shook the entire time, and I became just a little bit of speechless. And as I tried to walk it off and not think about any of it. I almost dropped stuff that I was carrying when my arm was touched. It was just my foolishness as usual. Of course all my co-workers got a great kick out of me as they normally do. I'm weird and I know it.

To top the day off yesterday, instead of saying the condiments are over there. I ended up saying the condoms are over there. Luckily the guest did not hear me. That would probably have turned out bad. I blame it on the heat. It was miserably hot yesterday.

About 20 more days til my b-day. I can't wait.

Deep down, I wish I knew how things go from being good to being bad. Then all of a sudden go good again. It drives me crazy just thinking about it. But that's me I am all about Facts and Theories.

A part of me wishes that I wasn't a friend of convenience. I guess that it has to go back to that at some point. I hope to change that again soon. But I'm not the type to complain about such petty things. I'm the I go with the flow type person.

So I think that I will end this here.

And my friend just sent me this video, and so I think I will end this with a video.

Really Got A Hold On Me....

Hmmm....

I try to sleep but my mind goes right where I don't want it to go.

Why do things have to be irresistible to me. My moments are driving me completely crazy.

My friends tell me I should be pissed off. But I don't hold grudges and I'm not really the type of person to.

Besides that, something has a hold of me, I wish I knew what it meant. And why I feel this way.

I wish I knew, if there ever was a possibility like before, Its hard to ponder over the answers. Let alone a vision.

But I already know what my answer would be. And that's what so confusing.

There is just so much that I miss lately. It's almost starting to freak me out.

So not only did I burn my tongue but I also rolled my ankle, all in one freakin day. And I also found out that I only have one day off instead of two. Just my luck this week; I guess.

I made the most amazing dinner, chicken parmesan and eggplant parmesan. And of course it helps to have leftovers to take to work.

I have been in this wild craving for Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi, I have been drinking it like crazy.

Now I don't know where to turn, So I think I will end it here...

You're my sunshine after the rain.....

Sometimes my thoughts can be excruciating. I'm not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing.

I Jump from day to day on my thoughts. Especially if I am trying to focus on just one thing in particular.

I know what I want the most. Its pretty much the most desirable thing in my thoughts lately.

I'm already losing focus...

I have also noticed that me reading a certain set of books does not quite help with my thoughts. It just makes me want my thoughts to become real.

I think I am going through a strange phase.

So I had the most amazing sundae the other day. It was from Hannah's and it was a Sundae Supreme. Mostly I just wanted cherries. I didn't really want the sundae, but I had it anyway, cause it looked delicious. And the rest of the crew was enjoying theirs.

I absolutely love cherries. Its like an abundance of joy.

I'm so happy that tomorrow is back to being my Friday. Even though I don't have a clue as to what I will do on my days off. I'm eager to do anything. Many Endless Possibilities.

I think that I need to stop listening to music that has so much meaning for me. The last couple of days I have been listening to this one Artist. I have like all of his CD's and so I just felt like listening to something that I haven't heard in a while. And now I can't resist the music again.

Hmm...

"What I Need To Do"....

Well now I am just rambling on and on, so I think that this will be my stopping point.

A Midsummer Night's Dream...

So lately I have been having the most vivid and colorful dreams ever. Its the weirdest thing, because they seem so real. Then I wake up and realize it was all a dream and none of it actually happened.

I know I am crazy, its strange to me, because I usually can never remember details of my dreams, but these have been different.

I find it odd.

And of course my dreams put me in a reminder of how much I enjoy A Midsummer Night's Dream. But anyway, this is just me being me as usual.

Now I guess that I will get off of here, and try to sleep before heading to work in like 7 hours.

All You Gotta Do Is Keep It Between The Lines...

Wow what great two days off that I have had this week. I wish that I didn't have to go back to work tomorrow. But I do. Oh well.

Happy Birthday Jitka!! I hope that you had a fantastic day today.

So it only took me three days to read Eclipse. Actually I just finished it about ten minutes ago. Now I can't wait til I start the next one. Which I will probably be starting tomorrow as soon as I buy it.

So tonight I think that I will eat pizza and watch The Happening. Sounds like a great plan. Although my plans always change.

So I bought flowers for my friend on Tuesday night. I absolutely love sunflowers and she just sort of popped into my head, and I knew she needed a little bit of sunshine before going to Kansas. Well, it never occurred to me that Kansas is the sunflower state until she gave me a Kansas shot glass.

Then everyday that I am @ work, I pass these absolutely beautiful orange lilies. And of course I love lilies just as much as I do sunflowers. I love seeing nature @ its best.

There are so many factors that I have had this year already. Its crazy. Just thinking about so much of it. I absolutely melt. I don't want to reminisce. It just sort of happens. I keep telling myself that the rendezvous that I had, happened for a reason. It's almost unbelievable. Everyone keeps telling me to forget. But a part of me keeps fighting not to forget. Its a constant battle with myself.

All I know is that I have a smile on my face no matter what.

Fire And Ice...

Fire and Ice by Robert Frost.


"Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice."




It has been so long since I saw Fire and Ice. But it surprised the heck out of me when I opened Eclipse and there it was.

So I opened up a care package that I received in the mail, and I was unsurprised to see movies. I have movies galore. I borrowed The Reader from my friend. I have yet to figure out what drew me to watch this movie. I still haven't made up my mind if I like it or if I don't like it.

So I finally broke down and turned my air conditioner on. I knew as soon as it got unbearable to sleep, that's my reason of turning it on. Although, I do have other reasons of not being able to sleep, but I choose to blame it on the humidity.

I'm struck down by my emotions. I soon wish to be walking out of them.

Things don't need to be complicated, the more simple the better.

I can't wait til my b-day. Only like 38 more days.

I have figured out that when your life has become a bit frozen, time seems to slow down. But when its thawed, it moves in the fastest pace it can go, and everything around you, flies by.

I question myself too much. Its a bad habit. But nobody is perfect. Especially me. I know I am not perfect nor will I ever be. And I wouldn't want to be either. I enjoy a little bit of chaos every once in a while.

Time to stop rambling on and on....

Oh Fiddlesticks...

Today was fun. I was very easily distracted all day today. And being very goofy. We were laughing so much. I think that tomorrow will be fun too. I will have a full crew and things will hopefully run smoothly the next four days without our boss.

I wish that I had distractions outside of work too. But I am hoping to change that soon.

So I have been reading a little bit more than I am usually able to. But the books that I have been reading are ones that I seem not able to put down. Although, sometimes that's how I like to read.

Absolutely Gorgeous Weather that we've been having. I've been sitting out on my deck just enjoying the heck out of it.

I've realized there are a few things that are worth waiting for.

The last couple of nights have sort of been restless ones. I only have one conclusion for it too. So its kind of been driving me crazy in more ways than one.

Right Here Waiting...

So it has been so long that I have heard this song. Its called Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx. I love it. I had just got into my car @ work, and this song came on. It definitely has a true meaning for me. I'm so glad that I got to hear it. It made me fill up with several different emotions. And of course my favorite radio station Magic 107.9, always plays the best songs as I drive to and from work each day. They played this one tonight and it made my day feel even greater.

So Go Check it Out!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vL7f5JGi0oc

When The Sun Goes Down....

I can definitely tell there is a new me. I'm happy that I broke down my barrier. I've noticed that things happen for a reason. Whether its good or bad. Its a path that I am willing to keep following. So far it hasn't let me down.

As the saying goes, "Every once in a while You have to let your hair down." Be yourself and have fun, that's the way that I see it.

I have scaled these city walls....

Tonight is the night to just chill. Tomorrow is my Manic Monday. So I had some pizza, and watched Cheech and Chong Up In Smoke. Probably end the night by listening to music.

There is this song that I play, but I always put it at the same part in the song. Its my favorite part of the song and probably most of the reason as to why I listen to it. Its all about the drums in this part of the song. Its amazing.

I took a stroll through a cemetery earlier tonight. I don't know what drew me to the action of doing that. It just sort of occurred.

"I don't why I did the things that I did. I don't why I said the things that I said." Some Cher. My favorite Cher song is If I Could Turn Back Time....

I'm on the verge of something. Now I don't know what exactly I wanted to write. Maybe I will think of it later.

Hmmm...

I think that's all I got for now...

This I Promise You....

I have had them stuck in my head ever since I heard them the other day.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNyIalZh-Q4


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lRMr5_nsWGs


Just got home from having a great day. Did a little bit of hiking, little bit of sight-seeing. Overall I have had two good days off this week. Thank goodness I did not have to work another six day week.

A Broken Barrier...

I'm breaking all the rules today...There is so much that I want. But today is the day that I completely break down my barrier. I have a reason to smile and I need to believe it. I challenge myself today. And I hope to overcome my challenge. And so today is the day to choose and will myself to keep on smiling, no matter what happens. I can't lose my focus. Or lose myself for that matter.

I'm waiting for the sky to fall....

Sweet... This is my 100th post!!!

I feel like a million bucks...I wonder if someone really could feel like that. How could one describe such a thing.

For some reason I cannot sleep tonight. Maybe its all of the apple juice that I have been drinking, since I got home today. Apple juice is great.

I have all kinds of energy tonight or should I say morning. I'm practically bouncing off of the walls.

Complex yet Simple...

Intriguing. Inspiring. Surprising.

I feel like being the Devil's Advocate. I don't know why either. Its just been crossing my thoughts lately. Maybe its what has happened in the past six days for me. Running around in circles. I'm on the verge of my objections to the patterns that I am leaning towards.

I'm really not that much different. I like to work hard, play hard, and have a good laugh once in a while.

Defying Gravity...

I know I'm weird and rambling on.. So I think this is where I stop.

On the Mountain...

I've realized that I can keep myself easily entertained. I laugh at myself way more than I think that I am supposed to. I go with the flow.

The whole time I was @ the hair salon today, I couldn't help being goofy. I think the lady got a kick out of me.

Oh my stars, a button just fell off of my new shirt. Oh well, there is @ least still two left.

Anyway, after I got done hiking, I was window shopping down @ the landing, and this lady was like do you always have a smile on your face. I guess it comes as a natural happiness, was my response.

I am excited to get back to work....of course there are a few obvious reasons to that, but no need to mention those.

I've been in this funky mood all day today. Maybe I am going loopy.

I went to walmart at what i thought was still night, but everyone kept saying good morning, and so I hurried up and looked @ my cell phone, and it said 12:30 am. I was like oh. I guess I didnt pay attention to what time I left my house. Oh well...

Signed, Sealed, Delivered, I'm somewhere.

The best treat that I have in my freezer right now, is M&M Cookie Ice Cream Sandwiches.

So I realized a part of my personality, is adding character to things that I am doing. Or add colors where I see fit. For example, I exchanged my dresses from costumes last week, and I left with very bright colors.


Now I am just rambling on and on....

If I could find a way...

Where to begin.....I'm so happy that the weekend is over. I am all about Cher this week. I've been listening to her music like crazy. I'm going on my hiking escapades on this beautiful afternoon. Its gorgeous weather once again. Although more rain starting tomorrow. But still, it might be good. So i have always been a Jet Li fan, and so last night I got to see two of his movies. I am counting the days down until my B-day!! Its getting closer and closer each day. I am on a new beginning, starting this month. I have set my goals and so far, I have started on the right side of the tracks. I'm excited. I am stepping forward on to a new roller-coaster journey. Many perspectives have enticed my thoughts lately. I am taking everything one day @ a time. Who knows where I will end up by the end.

1...2...3...Ready...

So I think that I am a moon child. I am absolutely fascinated by the moon and stars. I realized this when I drive home @ night. I could not take my eyes off of the moon.