Sometimes I feel...the only boys I need in my life....

I love how people keep me entertained.

The Season is finally Over. About Damn Time. Two Months of Freedom.

I can't wait to spend time with the ones that actually want to see me or fully miss me due to rarely seeing me.

I got to see my Orion the other night. I missed him. I gave his little horse toy to him. It was his Christmas present. He gave me a picture that he colored. I can't believe that he is going to be six in the new year. And I still can't believe that he will be in first grade.

Sometimes I feel like him and Jordan are the only boys I need in my life. The two cutest little boys ever. I can't wait to have kids of my own.

So I bought Angie (roommate) and her son Josh, Beatles Rockband for Christmas the other day. It was the best fun ever, to surprise Angie. Josh was in on it the whole time. I just wanted to give them something special.

Wild Bill, the sweetest man ever. The only thing I ever owe him, is a hug and a kiss on my cheek. Sorry Rob...I knew I should have got you one too. Rob and I were talking about Walking Tacos, and how they sounded so good. We were trying to find out who was working the stand pretty much all day. So my boss comes back with one. And I'm like who is running the stand. He told me my favorite person was running it. So I definitely knew where I was going for dinner break. And so I went down there, and there he was, Wild Bill.

So the final days of SDC season happened to be all about food. LOL!!

I had been determined all week to get a funnel cake with hot fudge on it. So I went to Fancy's and there was a huge line. So I was unsuccessful. Then later that night, while I was closing, my co-worker came up to me with one. It made my night.

First time ever trying pork rinds was today. And Eva & Delilahs sent some delicious treats from their bakery down to us the other day.

The Final Day has been a BitterSweet one.

The New Year is already upon us. Somehow my plans for new years eve got changed. I seem to never be able to say no. Oh well...I just hope that they go the way they are supposed to; now that they got changed. Cause I will be pissed if they don't.

I'm excited about Friday. I really do hope those plans are still on the schedule.

I get the boys on Saturday. And I am taking them with me to Karaoke cause I had already planned on going with Angie. I'm excited for that too.

Then Sunday, Its all about a Road-Trip.

My Week somehow got booked. I never have anything fully planned, I'm always a go with the flow.

That's all I have for now..

Until next time...

A thought went up my mind to-day...

3 More Days of Christmas....YAY!!

I was so happy to see my Kate today. :) She is the best.

Well, went to Karaoke last night. Interesting that was. And of course I like to meet new people so that was a good thing too. Thanks Angie.

I still can't believe that the year is almost over. It has gone by so fast.

I have doubled my time. Its been a blast and hope its not over, cause next year is still in the making for more great times and handfuls of memories and laughs.

The people that I work with amuse me. We had come up with a great idea. I said that since I have to work and you don't, then I'm working over the phone. So they were like okay. we will sit the phone next to a microphone. And you can tell them to drop the money in the box and then tell them where to go to pick up their items. I wish I could have done that, it would have been way better than freezing my ass off.

Then when my co-workers were leaving they got grapes from somebody. And so when one of them was distracted, I went into the bag and pulled out a thing of grapes. I stood there for a minute listening to their conversation and when they got done, I was like anybody want a grape. It took him a minut to figure out it was his. Of course he didn't care, he just laughed about it.

And tonight my boss was awesome. I had come back from my dinner break (which really isnt one especially when the main stand is closed)...and started talking about how I should have went to Buckshots and get a turkey leg. So he was like do you want me to go get you one. I told him, only if he wanted to. So then we got the guests all involved with our conversation. He walked all the way up there and they were out. So then he goes "well, I am going to Polly's to get soup." I told him I wanted potatoes and gravy. I just wanted something warm. So as he is coming back, he gets to my stand, and is standing there with the tray. And knocks over my potatoes and gravy. And as he is walking to the office to put his food away before going to get me more potaoes and gravy, I see that he got a piece of pie for himself. I made the comment; "wait a minute, you never said anything about pie." My boss goes, "you never said you wanted pie." I was only joking with him about the pie, but he surprised me when he brought back potatoes and gravy and a slice of pie for me.

I have the Song All You Need Is Love stuck in my head. All day long. As I sit here right now, I can't even get it out of my head. lol...

I don't know what else to say for tonight.

Until Next Time...

Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?

Got my hair cut...lol...Just a couple of inches off.

Didn't do too much today. Mostly running errands. My most important one, was a fun one. Went to a Mall that I had not been to in probably 2 years. But at least they still have my favorite store in it. Cause I would have been sad, if i could not get what I was determined to buy.

Had lunch with my parents.

Cleaned the house up for tomorrow night's gathering.

Then hung out with my brother for a few hours after he got off work.

Then its mostly been watchin a movie or listening to music. Not really much else going on.

1 more full day here...then I am on my way home...yay...

Well that's all that I have for now...

Until Next time..

Its where the heart is.....

Went to the hockey game. One thing I am glad about is that I don't really care for it. I watch it from time to time. But It really isn't my cup of tea.

Spent most of the day in town with my mom. I am not really a big shopper, and she wanted to buy me boots as a gift for Christmas, well, I was rather bored with looking at shoes, so I decided to tell her to save her money for herself.

I was shocked that my brother bought my way into the game, even though I was fully prepared of buying my own ticket. I should have bought a souvenir...LOL...

Illini and Mizzou play tonight...Go Illini....

I can't wait to see the Illini and Gonzaga game.

So the big get together will be on Christmas Eve...Since I will be driving back home Christmas Day...

I'm ready to get back home. I miss home. That statement makes me feel weird.

Of all the shit that has happened this year and in just the last two months...and I miss home...I think I need my head and heart examined. lol...

I've always liked the statement..."Home is Where the Heart Is." It suits me well. And for good reason..lol..

Not quite sure what the plans are for tomorrow...hopefully something good.

Until we meet again....

And when I get out for good behavior....

Well I made it to my destination...

It was a weird start to the day....but I made it stick like glue...lol...

I also made someone giggle @ me, which made my day.

One day down and 3 full days left....

I took a nap @ a walmart for 1 hour...I even shut my phone off, which I seem to never do lately..

I'm excited how this year is going to end. LOL.

Well...

Until We Meet Again...

I Promise You...

I'm so excited. I drive to Illinois in about 8 hours. I can't wait.

I really really wanted a puppy for Christmas. It saddens me.. Oh well...I guess I will have to wait.

5 days left of the season...yay!! I will be free.

So Saturday night was so much fun. I can't wait to do it again. if you want to know more about that...just ask me.

I watched one of the Nascar races that I had missed. I was excited about that.

I was surprised with the most gorgeous gift @ work. It brought tears to my eyes. It was so sweet.

I have pretty much adopted Bella. She nibbles on me, licks me, lays on me, sits on me, kisses me. Too bad she is my roommates puppy.

So I found out that certain people talk about me at work. I kind of expected it last year...but this year, its more of surprise. I haven't figured out if its weird or not.

Well I don't know what else to put.

So until next time....

pretty much....

I think tonight I feel like going dancing...lol...

I am super hyper tonight.

1 more day and I'm on my way.

13,000 crazy people should have stayed home. lol....jk...It was a cold and boring day @ work but well worth it. I had to make so much hot chocolate I thought my arm was going to fall off. We whisk everything by hand, and I'm talking 5 gallon containers...and the water was definitely not cold.

This holiday season is a bit different to me. Of course no one special to share it with like usual, besides friends and family. It took me a lot longer to get into the spririt of it all.

I'm super excited to start having weekends off..I can't wait to have my two favorite little boys with me. I miss them so much...And of course it will give their Mom a break on having to pay a baby-sitter.

I'm also going to have more time to spend with certain people, which is what I have been waiting on, for a really long time.

One thing that saddens me that when I visit my family which is in two days, my puppy buddy wont be there. :(

Anyway.....

Until Next Time...

That you have but slumbered here....

So to speak...I've dug myself out. LOL!!

So I am excited to be driving to my Northern Home... I think like 4 or 5 days and I am on my way. I'm also excited to see some hockey...its been a long time since I've seen a game. I just hope I don't get bored with it. On the other hand, it gives me some time to spend with my brothers.

My friend finally sent me the Nascar races that I had missed while working my tail off. So I can't wait to get to watch those.

So I've been drinking Eggnog like crazy @ work. I never thought that I would ever like it. I finally am in the mood of the holiday spirit. It took almost the whole two months this year.

Uhmm yeah, not much more to really say...

Until Next Time...

Doing Your Best....

Cannot be taken away...

Life is what it is. I have figured out so much this year. Its been a tough year, but lucky for me there is always next year. I'm excited where its going to take me. My goals are set, and ready to be accomplished. Everything has been backwards especially where my damn focus has been. But now I am right where I am supposed to be.

There is so much worth waiting for. And lucky for me I know what my list looks like.

I sometimes feel stranded but then I walk it right out of my head. All that I can say is that I am who I am for a reason and nobody can take that away from me, "Not No Way, Not No How."

I'm a risk taker. I take chances all the time. If I didn't, what kind of life would I lead?

Until Next Time...

Maybe Its Springfield....

So I had my interview. I'm excited if it works out. I guess I could get used to Springfield. I have it in my whatever I want to call it, that I pretty much just want to be claimed as something. So yeah...Im tired and I'm going to crawl into bed.

Go ahead and Jump.....

I'm So excited!! And I don't have a clue why either. LOL!!

Hmmm....I Wonder.....Any Suggestions??

So in January and February...I still need to decide where and what I want to do. I kind of don't want to be stuck in MO for two long months. Any Suggestions???

Had a pretty good day off today.

Went to a luncheon at work with my roommate. Suppose to go to my departments pot luck dinner tomorrow night, but I don't think I will go.

Ran some errands. Hung out with an amazing 12 year old (he's a genius)...watched a movie although we mostly talked through the whole thing. Played PS2 with my roommates.

Went to this loan place, and my roommate asked me if I wanted a pen, I told her no I'm good. So she decided to take one, then she took two. And the lady was like take as many as you want. So my roommate dumped the whole mug in her purse. And the lady was like you want one of my jumbo pens. And she gave her that too. We were all laughing so hard.

Watched Maggie and Bella attack one another for a rubber chicken. Glad that Maggie has finally warmed up to me again.

Watched another movie while eating our frozen pizzas. Then played some more PS2.

Been listening to Van Halen like crazy.


Well I think I'm going to curl up in a blanket and watch a movie.

That's all I have for now....

You've got to roll with the punches.....

Life is going good, I guess. My days off this week have not started out the way they should. But I am trying to work on that.

I am honestly not enjoying being single anymore. Before it really didn't bother me too much, there were a bunch of factors that made things better. But now, I'm just tired of it. I honestly don't know anymore. Oh well, Nothing I can do about it.

So on Saturday I had a headache pretty much all day. When I got home I took my hair down, and realized that I had a bump on my head. I was trying to think of how I received such a bump. Then I remembered, I got hit in the head at work. I was helping someone that was working at one of my stands put an awning down. Well to reach this awning I have to climb the side of the wall. He was on the other end and had tried to put it down all the way and forgetting that I was still on the wall. And he let it fall and hit me in the head. Oh well...lol...

My foot is finally feeling much better. I was in so much pain last night trying to walk on it. I don't have a clue what was wrong with it. I'm just glad it stopped hurting.

So this lady had bought a bottle of water from us, and she tried to tell me that she paid for it with a twenty dollar bill instead of a five dollar bill. I was like no mam, you gave me a five dollar bill. So she said okay, then left the line. Well the next thing I know, she is back. Once again, claiming that she gave me a twenty dollar bill. So I was like okay, we will give you the fifteen dollars that we supposedly owe you. So my co-worker was saying the same thing. So I did. So I told my co-worker after she left, I was like I know that she gave me a five dollar bill. Because the guy a head of her gave me a twenty dollar bill. It just so happened that our auditor came down not to long after that. So I went to lunch and my co-worker informed her of the situation that occurred. Once she got done auditing our register, he asked her about that. And of course I was right. She gave me a five dollar bill. So she had made our register fifteen dollars short and made off with a profit.

I'm the most honest person. I have no reason at all to be dishonest. Karma would bite me in the ass if I was dishonest. LOL!!

I have nothing else to say now....

rather be a giver than a receiver

I hate Cancer and what it does to people. Mom is headed back in for more surgery. And she just came into recovery from the last one two weeks ago.

So I am a person that rarely shops for myself on special items.

Well I decided that I wanted to pick a pearl.

And I kept telling everyone that I really wanted the rarest pearl; which is the black pearl. I was confident that I was going to pick an oyster with one in it. So I went down to the shop... I used the tongs and started picking through..And finally I found an oyster that I liked the looks of. It was underneath all the other oysters and on the very bottom. She cracked that baby open...and it was awesome, I got a black pearl. It so made my night.

I would rather be a giver than a receiver.

I rarely ask for help when I know its necessary..I'm stubborn like that.

It has been so cold....and the bad thing is that we could only open up three of our shops. But I hope that Saturday will be our big day. Its been boring these past couple of days.

Finally got my rehire papers. I'm going to sign my life away at least one more year. lol...

I'm so ready for my simple life...

Anyway...might as well try and get some sleep before heading to work...

Until We Meet Again...

I think we're alone now....

So happy to have days off finally... Pretty much just hanging out at home, and sometimes out and about.

Definitely ready to be done with the season. I'm moving on I think...lol...

My roommate asked me if I thought that I had made the wrong decision of moving in. Honestly I don't think that I did...but I really don't know.

Lately I have had so much on my mind, its crazy.

I do know where I am going though; really really soon. And I can't wait.

Lately I have been looking at everything that has been going on as if they were rocks skipping on the lake.

I see stuff differently than everyone else.

Just like when I clocked out the other night and was smiling to somebody when we said see you tomorrow, and somebody else was like how can you still smile. Its just a natural thing for me. I always smile even if I'm having a shitty day.

So at work they are now calling what I say as Amanda-isms. I told them on Friday, that it wasn't Sunday, just because I was having a sundae. I'm so strange. I just say so much random stuff.

I'm a very random person. I think that's what I love about myself the most.

That's all I have for now....

Kickin it to the curb....

I keep asking myself over and over the same question. Why Me?

It all falls down and I see myself walking through a door with a sign above that says shit happens. Then the Light comes on and says Life's a Bitch and its kicking your ass once again.

Seriously....?

I'm done with Bullshit and Drama....I'm kickin it to the curb.

I have way better things to do....I won't be struck with a standstill.

I'm simple. and that's how I like it.

That's all I got for now....

So Worth Waiting For.....

This has been the best week ever. And its not even over yet.

Something worth waiting for is the most amazing feeling in the world. Pretty much blows your mind.

I'm excited about continuing down my path that I am currently sailing on.

Of course Life is definitely good today.

I'm enjoying my new home sweet home.

I'm having a blast this year and I have been blessed with so many great memories.

That's all I have for now....

Until next time.....

Fate and the Unexpected.........

I only have one more full day left here. I'm so ready to get back. This week has been pretty good.

The Yanks won the World Series. Which is sweet.

I'm ready for the unexpected. Everything is right where it should be. I'm just wondering when....

Fate has seemed to bring me a long way this year.

I'm excited about where its going to take me next.

I'm just going to kick back and go with the flow like always.

And have some kick-ass fun while taking that path.

Thats all I have for now....

If Only You Knew....

Man I dont have a clue how in the world I get myself into situations. It all seems to find me. I guess chaos should be my middle name. LOL!! I won't say anymore to that one. But its a tad funny as hell.

RIP to my puppy....:( I'm going to miss you so much.

I can tell that I needed a vacation. I've been so fatigued that I slept wonderfully last night. I wish I could do that more often. It feels weird to be back up here, it sometimes feels like I've never left. Oh well, Missouri is my home. And the QC area is just my northern home.

Anywho....I gotta get going now.

Guess That's all I got for now.

Until Next Time....

Hmmm...

So Finally on vacation!!! Up in the QC area for a week. I already miss my home. Oh well..

Two months of Christmas!! BLAH!!

Maybe kick up some excitement for after December.

Life is good today. Things are starting to look up again.

Strictly Speaking.........

Oh Gotta Love Sarah Jessica Parker....She cracks me up. I watched Hocus Pocus today. I love that movie.

Yanks won tonight!! Which is awesome!!

I've sort of started packing again. For some reason I just want to procrastinate it all, which I know that I can't.


I'm all about music this week. Sweet child of mine is my cell ringer. And Mustang Sally is my text ringer.

I want to do something fun, something that I have never done. Any suggestions??

Christmas Festival starts in about 9 days.

Life is good today.

If Only You knew....LOL

Until We Meet Again...TTFN!!

No Rhyme or Reason....

Already home from work... 3 hours of a not so busy day. Its sad that employees actually outnumbered the guests today. This just gives me more time to get stuff done. Two more days left before my vacation begins. I start moving stuff into the new place tomorrow night. So that's exciting.

Lately I've been having a blast...and for once I am happy to say that its a good thing.

Well I think that's all I got for now...

Oh You Better Believe It...

3 more days and my vacation begins. I'm ready for it. Then its on to two months of Christmas. Which I don't know if I am ready for that.

I'm excited about moving.

Everything seems to be going great.

I love the Fall. I can't believe that its almost November. Time has gone by so fast.

Everything is looking up and its a wonderful feeling.

That's all that I have for now.

The Wheels are going to keep on ROLLING....

I am 110% ready.

I'm loving every second of it too.

I have finally realized what I should have along time ago.

Its about damn time.

I'm finally where I am supposed to be.

The rarity of me is getting more and more closer to staying out completely. :)

I am no longer the same.

It just keeps getting better and better.

TTFN!!!

Douceur de vivre....

Glad to be off work early today.

Had a fun girls night out on Saturday. Very well deserved after the crazy weeks I've been workin.

Everything is going great. I'm loving every second of it.

I am counting my days down. Its going to be the best vacation. I'm ready for it.

So much of my crazy life, is so worth it right now. And only a few people are getting to know the rarity of me.

Trust me, its damn well worth it. And I wouldn't change anything in a heartbeat.

That's all I got for now...

Until Next Time...

Je m'en fous....

"I know what I am; I know what I want; I know who I am; I know I am."

bon vivant ....

What a week it has been so far. It can only keep getting better. :)

Had fun in North Springfield yesterday morning. LOL!!

It was a good day at work today. Had a very good start with a distraction. Over all it was good. And hope to have the same distraction tomorrow too.

So far my plan is working. And I'm not at all nervous or anything at all. I'm actually okay with it all. It might not suit me, but I might as well, keep going the way I am. I am not at all the same person I was at the beginning of the year and I love that for some odd reason.

I burnt my hand today and didn't even realize I had, until my friend saw it. Oh well it wouldn't be the first time from work.

Its beginning to look a lot like Christmas!! LOL!!

Everything is All Good.....

Vous rigolez...

Aspects are great at the moment. Its going to be an interesting day tomorrow. I'm up for the excitement tomorrow morning.

My boss made me giggle today. He got the dirtiest look ever from one of our employees, who shall remain nameless and whom has women in authority issues, my boss told our job share person that I was the lead. It made my day to see that.

All my favorite people are leaving. :( I wish they didn't have to go.

KATE I MISS YOU!!! Its not the same without you...

TTFN!!

Ceux qui rient le vendredi, pleureront le dimanche.....

What a day it has been. Its been actually a great day. But it took its very sweet time getting to one.

So my fridge now has some new wise and witty words on it.

"Love like you will Never get Hurt"

And the other one is:

"My Best Friend is the one that brings out the Best in Me"

So I finally got all the new fixings for the new bed. Red and Black so sweet. I have quite the mentality and reasons for choosing such colors. It amuses me, because it would be the complete opposite of the usual colors I would choose.

Its been quite the week of animals. I've been playing with puppies. I helped deliver kittens.

I went hiking tonight, when I got out of work. It was very much needed. I miss being able to do all that stuff, so its always good to get to do it when I have the chance.

I'm taking everything one day at a time, and going to stick to it as much as I can.

Here's Where I Stop....

Possibly Something???

Just got home from swimming. These last couple of days have been great. Its exciting. And I hope that it keeps going that way too.

I'm kind of not ready to get back to work, but it only means that I get to spend the next two days with my friend before she leaves us for good. :( Good thing she only lives like 2 minutes away from SDC!! :)

So I couldn't find my name tag for like 2 weeks. And tonight I just happened to move something, and there it was. I'm weird...

One of my favorite quotes is by John Mayer...

“Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I've got a few missing. It's ok though, because I've got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem though in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation.. so when I meet someone who's an 8-color type.. I'm like, "hey girl, magenta!" and she's like, "oh, you mean purple!" and she goes off on her purple thing, and I'm like, "no - I want magenta!"
I don't know what brought that on my mind but all I know is that I like it.

I'm just hanging out tonight. Listening to Music, might watch a movie here real soon

I saw the Ugly Truth yesterday, great movie that is. I really like it. And of course then my important 2 wanted to see Harry Potter today. So I got to see 2 new movies this week.

They leave tomorrow. So I am basically Free again!!

I am exhausted. But I will get over that.

Well that's all I have for now.

Later...

This vibe has got a hold on me.....

Oh my goodness...This week has started very interesting. I'm loving every second of it though.

I bought a tall Iced Caramel Macchiato from Starbucks. Oh its so good. It has been so long that I have had Starbucks. Quite delicious, and its always been my favorite when I go.

You know its ignorant people that call you on your day off, and try to get you to come into work, when they know, that I'm not going to come in, because 2 very important people are in town for just the two days that I am off. DUH!! He can kiss my ass too. Try and have me written up, I could care less, it wont stick. just like the last time. Completely Ignorant.

I shut my phone off for 1 night, and turn my phone back on the next morning, and it has all sorts of messages on it. Completely Crazy. I should shut my phone off more often. Then when I come home, my answering machine has a bunch of messages on it. Crazy.

I guess thats it for now.

This Feeling's Got Me Weak in the Knees....

Oh my goodness!! It is such an amazing night. The moon is absolutely gorgeous. I got outta work at 9:30 tonight. Crazy!! Went in at 9 am. I was even giving special rates to guests when we started running out of change. It was fun. It was nice to have modern music rather than hearing the same old stuff. Can't wait to do it all over again tomorrow.

Things are going great. I am finally feeling like I am no longer just going through the motions. About damn time.

And of course I am surrounded by a few kick-ass people.

I'm excited about the path that I am leaning towards the most. I am actually proud of myself. A few different people have brought out something totally different in me. I really hope that it stays that way too.

I am glad that August is here. I am ready for fall.

That's all I got for now....

Until Next Time.....

On A Night Like This....

So I made this goal, by August first it would be done. Goal was not completed. So I guess I will have to push the goal back to a further date. I made myself a goal that I would get to wear a dress that's been hanging up in my closet since freakin April. It is the most classy looking dress ever. I hope to wear it by the end of this year. I will probably end up being so mad at myself, if I don't get to wear it.

I have also been fidgeting around with my little black box. It seems that when ever I sit down next to it my hands seem to cling to it. I always catch myself turning it over and over in my hands, then I always open the thing. The necklace is gorgeous and I want to wear it so badly. one of these days, maybe this coming week on my days off, I will just break down and wear it. I was told that I could wear the pearl @ work, but its too gorgeous to wear and have something happen to it.

YAY!! July is finally over. Its about time. Pretty soon we will be back to five days. I can't wait.

I can't wait Til Monday!! I get to see two very important people. Its going to be sweet.

Before I ramble on more... I think I will end it here.

Until We Meet Again....

Yep...I think I'm Cursed...

These qualities of ups and downs that seem to occur a lot lately, are starting to worry me. I truly do think that I am cursed. I am starting to get tired of being surrounded in all the BS lately. I guess once again Life's a Bitch and its kicking my ass once again. WTF!! I need something to change fast, I'm tired of running in circles where all is relative and not fitting in place as it should. Its a curse....I just know it.

Realm of Me...

Realm of Me

Pride comes so easy for some
Its just a matter of time
Power or none
Living, dying, trying to be
Somebody they all can see
Life is my rhyme
Death is my rhythm
Pride is my lyric
Its me, its nobody else
I’m stuck in a realm of me
There is no where else I can go
I just have to wait for the right flow
Turning to the light of time
Turning to the darkness of rhyme
All I have to do is cross over the line.
.............................................

So I have figured out that I would never want to change me in a heartbeat.

Yeah I am shy and quiet, but that's only @ first. but as soon as I am comfortable then I am more outgoing, and sometimes it depends on the type of person that I am around. I have noticed that different people bring out different things in me.

A part of me is starting to love Missouri more and more each day. I know that I will never forget where I come from. And its only an 8 hour drive back to that good old highway 67. But Missouri is home, at least for right now. Who knows what the future could bring.

I'm always ready to try new things. And I know that my heart will always be in many places. I gave my heart to my friends and to my family and others that I really care about.

I have no regrets and life's a dance and anything can happen. Why Regret?

I have taken a lot of chances in my life, and some have turned out good and others have been bad. But I keep going with a smile on my face and a welcoming hand. I take the bad stuff right along side the good. Because that's who I am. I don't judge others, I judge myself more than anything.

So I love music without any hesitation @ all. I have no true preference. I listen to everything. If there was no music @ all, life would be dull. My favorite instruments. are guitars, saxophones and fiddles. Especially a certain Scottish Fiddler I know. I am a writer, and the thought of being published is very enticing. And I could care less whether anyone liked it or not.

I love flip-flops, I don't really care to wear shoes and socks. I'd rather not.

Of all things that I absolutely hate, is saying good-bye. I cannot stand the words.

Traveling is my biggest passion in life. If I couldn't travel, I don't know what I would do.

I enjoy Czech Coffee, and salsa dancing, even though I am not very good @ it.

I like to work hard, play hard and have a good laugh once in a while. I like to make people smile and be happy. But that's just me.

When I Close My Eyes....

So lately I have been thinking about me as a person. I'll tell you one thing, its hard to figure that out.

I am:


Honest

caring

Shy @ first

Stubborn

Open-minded

Easy to get along with

Adventurous

Laid-back

Very Generous

Good Heart

Understanding

Down To Earth

Hard-worker

Indecisive @ times

Goofy

Dreamer

Weird

Devotional to Others

Goal Oriented

Determined

Clumsy



That's some of it.

And it goes a little something like this....

The strangest phrase in my vocabulary this week has been "officially unofficial." Whatever the heck that means. I am ready to take it out of my vocabulary.

So yesterday, my thoughts were pondering over and over the same thoughts. But earlier this morning, I realized why. So now nothing is confusing anymore. And I am going to go with the flow, and just clear it all out. I am going to be on my perch and wait.

So my friends have made their point on certain aspects that are going on in my life at the moment.

I was surprised not to be called into work today. I was just waiting for it to happen.

So I keep telling myself, that a chance will be taken. And I really hope that it does. I would rather have a chance be taken, then what it supposedly is right now.

A good start is a slow pace.

That's What She Said......

It rained today. It was perfect weather. We were somewhat busy, and somewhat not. It just ended up being a really long day. Get to do it all over again tomorrow.

I got the sweetest gift today. It was really sweet. I was given a pearl, I can't wait to wear it, its a sort of bluish color too.

Lately I have been all about kids. This guy brought his little girl up to the counter with him. She was absolutely adorable. She was only 10 months old.

Instead of Procrastination this week there has actually been some Productivity.

I'm excited, about how things are going at the moment.

I can't believe I missed the Bix.

Still counting the days down until my vacation. Its going to be fun.

Well that's all I have for now.

Until next time.

And the beat goes on...

Lately it feels like I have butterflies in my stomach. Its a good thing. Where my happiness is at right now, is where I want it to stay. I have been ecstatic about a few things. Which a part of me is nervous and the other part isn't at all. And lately I've been putting 100% into just about everything I do. There's a lot for me to consider but I'm taking it all in strides.

This lady let me hold her daughter today. Her daughter was 18 months. She was so cute. I had her laughing and smiling. We had a lot of fun. I didn't want to put her down. She was wearing this adorable outfit too. They even took a picture of me holding her. I guess its a good thing since my job is to create memories worth repeating.

Such gorgeous weather. I love it.

Its been a long summer and I can't wait for it to be over, I want it to be fall already.

I love getting packages in the mail. Especially homemade cookies from my dad. Got a couple of new movies which is always good. Got a pretty sweet b-day present from my brother.

Yeah, I think that's all I got for now...

We'll get there fast; And then we'll take it slow.....

So I have just a minor bump on my head from last night. I ended up going to see a friend this morning and that's what they told me. She used to be a nurse, so it saved me from having to make a dreadful hospital trip. You all know what I'm like, unless I am absolutely really bad or dying, I don't check myself into one. Or if well, like I told my friend this morning, if I was going into labor then I will check myself into one. I'll visit whom ever is in one, but that's about it. I'll go into them, but I'm always nervous as hell.

So yeah, I tried to help some friends last night, and I'm the one that get's hurt.

It has been absolutely gorgeous weather the last couple of days. I love it.

I can't wait for fall to get here. Of course it is my favorite season.

I still can't believe that I am 23. This lady the other day while I was at Wal-mart, kept following me down a few aisles, and she was like how old are you. I told her, and she goes you don't even look it. I told her, yeah I get that all the time. Even at work I get that.

So my friend and I were talking the other night, and she was like I just want one more kid. So then we were both saying how funny it would be, if she ended up having twins instead of just one. Well then she was like, actually you would have a better chance of having twins than me. At least they would have a pal to play with. :) And of course my mom always plays with all the babies when she sees one, even a complete strangers.

I love my friend's two little boys. I spoil them, they make me laugh, I would do anything for them. I even have changed diapers. I still can't believe how big they are getting. When I met Orion, he was 3 and now he is 5 and going into Kindergarten. Jordan was pretty much a baby still, he is 1 now, going to be 2 soon. Its like wow I still can't believe it.

I still can't believe how long I have been living down here. Sometimes it just doesn't seem like very long.

But soon I will be heading to the QC Area, for my vacation. I can't wait.

Well that's all I got for now.

Two by Two.....

Today was a decent day off. I hope tomorrow is an even better one.

I didn't do too much. Just a little bit of this and a little bit of that.

I'm counting my days down til my vacation.

So I have chosen this new path to be on in my life. I'm excited to see where it could lead.

Work might have me a bit more burned out than last year, but hopefully I'll be rid of that feeling soon.

But yeah, things are going great and I hope they keep going great.

Just strike the match already......

Things are great @ the moment.

The rain came and it was an even better day. I got drenched on my lunch break. But overall it was a good day @ work.

So here I go again, trying to figure things out.

I want a puppy or a kitty,

I've been playing and loving up a pitbull puppy in the last like two weeks.

I'm ready for the match to be struck.

Tonight I just feel like hanging out. been listening to music since I got home. Tonight once again, I wish I was anywhere but here, but oh well.

I have the next two days off, and have no clue what I want to do.

I've noticed lately that I bite my lip more. Its weird.

Anywho, I am just rambling on now, so I think this is it for tonight.

You Can't Always Get What You Want......

As I was driving out to my friend's house, one of my favorite songs came on. It was great. So I just want to share it with you.



Had a pretty good b-day.

Was glad to have a good turn-out @ work. I'd rather be busy than be bored.

It kind of felt weird being single to celebrate my b-day, but then I was like no I think it will be alright.

I had some kick-ass friends to help celebrate it with me.

So it turned out to be a pretty sweet day yesterday.

I'm not looking forward to going to work in a few hours but oh well, that's life.

And I have a lot to think about in the next week or so. Which might turn out to be the best thing for me. So I am happy about that.

The place to be this week is Springfield......

Yay!! 1 more day and I will be 23. I'm excited.

I am kind of wishing that I didn't have to go to work today. I seem really tired for some reason. Oh well...

I'm confused about a few things this morning and last night, but I'm not going to let it get me down. I'm tired of feeling struck down by whats going on in my head.

Oh yeah, I absolutely love my new bed. It was the perfect early b-day present.

I'm thinking either tonight or tomorrow the place to be is Springfield. But I can't set that in stone yet. I'm hoping more tonight than tomorrow. Since I already got plans tomorrow. Which I hope that they go the way they are supposed to.

Well I have to start getting ready for work now....

That's my story and I'm sticking to it....

I've been side-tracked, but overall I look at it as being a good thing.

So far I like what I see and I know and am prepared for what I want.

I'm on a curiosity path.

My b-day is in two days!! YAY!! Its going to be sweet.

I am absolutely loving life right now, and its great.

That's my story and I'm sticking to it......

Creating Memories Worth Repeating......

Today was a sweet day off.

Got to hang out with my best friend, haven't done that in a while.

Went and had some drinks @ Tequilas, had some delicious nachos. Met an Awesome lady, while we were there.

We went on a country road trip. Which was fun as usual.

Got to see my two favorite little boys.

Been texting all day with a pretty awesome person.

Its been an all around great day.

Wish I didn't have to work tomorrow.

My b-day is in 3 days. Sweet!!

Its going to be awesome. I can't wait.

So far, so good....

Oh what a week it has been already. Sunday turned out to be a pretty sweet day off. Monday morning, before work was excellent. My day off today has been an interesting one. Could get a little bit more interesting later.

My new bed came today. I love it. Its a sweet early birthday present.

I've been texting like crazy today. I never text this much.

Uhm...I rearranged pretty much my entire home.

My b-day is in 4 days. Awesome.

Its my day off again tomorrow.

Guess that's all I got for now.

Because I Said So.....

So I am excited to actually have a Sunday off. It has been a great week. And I actually have plans made for my day off too. Which actually came out of the blue earlier. So that's pretty sweet.

I'm excited my new bed comes on Tuesday. Its a pretty good birthday present, I must say so myself.

My B-day is in 6 days. I can't believe it. I'm excited.

I still can't believe that my brother and I will be 23. Its just crazy..

My vacation is set and I am excited for that.

Things are actually going pretty good lately.

I still wish a few things were going in a different direction, but oh well, nothing is impossible.

I think that's all I got for now....

My kind of rain.....

So I have been in this funky mood all day long. I think its a good thing, but then again I could be wrong. I had an excellent day @ work. I was smiling and laughing all day. So that's a plus.

I wish that I was at a point to understand me. I'm tired of being judged before even getting to know me. I'm at a standstill, because I am looking for answers that are not even there. It gets discouraging.

Sometimes I just wish things were different.

I just want simple and less complicated....

My b-day is in 9 days. YAY!! I'm excited.

Everything feels different this year. Maybe I'm just weird.

I went up in a helicopter this week already. It was actually pretty cool.

I'm ready for a vacation. And I know exactly where I'm going too.

You know the way I see it, is that I have a smile on my face and that's what matters the most.